So here begins a new non-themed, no story, plain and simple journey. I photograph what I find interesting to shoot, that's it!
We'll see what takes place...
Best as always,
Patricia

My old friend from long ago, just 63, dying of lung cancer wasn't so much of a shock as a window on the future. When I visited there last year, Ron was ill, never to return to a vibrant life. And Gary, also an old friend from that time and place, had battled lung cancer and then brain cancer. He was still alive, but again, never to return to that state of vibrancy. For me, still alive and with lots of energy, I look at them and wonder what happened? I am blessed with good health and I'm greatful, but one can't help but see the road signs ahead.
My sister has been going through chemo for the past three months and although there is improvement, it's taking it's toll on her. I say this with surety even though we are not speaking at this time. When I visited last, she ended up in an outrage, prompted by the illness I'm sure, and all the things in life that have made her angry, me included. Her disappointments in life all came crashing down and continued to rain and although I was angry and hurt, I was peaceful while driving away towards home. A proper ending to a messy, never-to-be-resolved relationship. Why would I want to be in someones' life who doesn't want me there? So through the rain falling in the Gila Mountains, I drove home, cleansed in a sense from the ugliness and anger.
My regret...that I cancelled my two weddings.
Fall is here and the weather is changing and hopefully the news will be better, too. We all have our challenges and our triumphs and somewhere-in-betweens. And what goes on in a human life and why cannot ever be answered completely. It's a drama unfolding minute by minute, action by action, choice by choice. My period of silence has been good for me, a time for contemplation of these events and how they all fit into life. More importantly, I've seen more clearly the other people and events in my life that are not affected by this dark cloak. They shine all the brighter and remind me that the duality in life continues, moment by moment.

ed about it, I'm sure that's what it will be.